6/23/06 11:59 pm
oh my fecking god. today was the last day of school. before scott arrived, i was thinking "i hope we wears a cute shirt today". surely enough, he wore his avenged sevenfold shirt. ^_^ sam hubbard randomly came up to our group and yelled, "OH MY GOD!" and scott was taping it.
then later on, i was standing outside the cafeteria with the group, and scott walked by. i said to matt, "that may be the last time ill see him!" and so matt was like "what, is he moving next year?" and i was like "no, i dont think so." i thought id see scott at the end of the day.
and i didnt see him. i was searching the school, to look for my love, so i could see him for the last time before two months without him. i started crying and when i came back, matt was like "whats wrong" and i was like "nothing, its the last day of school." i told him they were tears of happiness, that school was over.
and then i tried to stop from crying. and i am crying right now. because i will miss scott so fucking much.
and yeah after school we went to six flags. with andi matt kelsey jess and chris. at one point when we were all eating, kelsey andi and matt got up to get icess, leaving me jess and chris. then jess went up to the bathroom.
most awkward five minutes ever.
and yeah six flags wasnt as cool as last time.
when they were driving me home, i was discussing my "relationship problems" and everyone wanted me to shut up. i retold them about the ngith of chris and they laughed. dude, so many so adorable things happened that night! nine months ago tonight, was pure fucking magic.
chris is one of my potential soulmates, whom i experienced love at first sight with. then theres billy joe, who is the d to my d/hr. then theres ryan, who im practically already married to. then there of course is scott, whom i swear i have loved more than anyone else. then theres... oh shit nevermind. cant say. people would kill me. anyway with that guy it was kind of love at first sight.
i have loved scott more than zach because:
a. when zach danced with jessica blair, i cried a lot. but when scott flirted with another girl, i went home and cried hysterically.
b. on the last day of 8th grade, i didnt cry when it was my last day of seeing zach. however i am crying over scott today.
c. zach was just hot, and okay he was nice too, and sort of smart. hes mainstream. scott however, is underappreciated, he has the most amazing personality even only from before, he is just more lovable to me. zach is more crushable.
d. i went into denial with my feelings for scott. last year in washington, he sat next to me at one of the museums. i was thinking that he was hot, yet forgot about him. and in math i still noticed him but only labeled him as "fucking sexy". with zach, it was just...ergh. teh boringness.